Many Red Devils's Page

Over the last couple years honesty has become much more important to me in regards to everything. For my entire life so far, i feel like i have been trying to be what was expected out of me (mostly by my parents, but also my peers at school and work....and as loving as my parents are they really don't understand me, how i think, or what i need/want). Lately this has REALLY been bothering me, this persona that i have to carry around so as not to be so drastically in contrast to the people i am ar… Continue

I have had a really shitty couple days at work this week, i hate it when people try to induce guilt by being belittling and derisive (my boss on monday about 'rain days'), and then today we had a customer complain about some particulars about the job and we had to re-do a large portion of the paving stone we had already laid in. This really bothered me, as the designer/salesman who sold this job OK'ed all the stuff that was complained about, as well as the fact that they sent us to do a job that… Continue

this is a little poem i wrote a while ago, i felt like sharing it here. This poem i think captures a certain essence of who i really am and where i want to be in my life (at least a part of it)


these shoes are so uncomfortable
much too big and so ill-fitting in design
all i want to do is write poetry in spring

these steel toe boots constrict me
i build these sidewalks, leaving little pieces
of me behind for the world to walk all over
all i want to do is write poetry in fall

these wool socks… Continue

Yesterday, my co-worker was driving our work truck to site (I work in residential construction); as we approached an intersection near a highschool an odd sensation came over me. We ended up being unable to stop for the light when it changed and were pulled over by the police, at first my partner and I were not worried as both of us have clean records, but that feeling persisted as the cop came up to take his license and the registration for the truck and to tell John that he was getting a ticke… Continue

This is my first blog post (in fact this community is the first on-line thing i have ever joined) and I just wanted to say something to get myself used to the idea of sharing on-line.

Since discovering what it is I have been going through for so long, I have started to feel much better about myself and the possibilities ahead; I've even started to not want to smoke pot anymore (for years I thought it was helping me cope with my own mind, but I think all it does is just cause me to ignore 'it'-… Continue