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Charlotte Caulfield commented on Layla's blog post 'Fighting The Numbness'

oh Layla I am sending you so much love and forgiveness. You have been so horribly victimised that it has dirtied your soul. Your soul isn't missing, it is just stuck and surrounded by blackness. I have been there and want you to know that you can ...

July 28

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Fighting The Numbness

Often rather traumatic things have happened to me throughout my life. Every time something does, some subconscious part of my mind insists No, you can't handle this. It will destroy you if you try. So I went numb. And now when the bad things happe...

July 27

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Turning A New Leaf??? Skeptical, But Hopeful

July 13

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Time Heals All Wounds...Well Maybe Not, But It Helps

July 3

Tammie commented on Layla's blog post 'When Life Gives You Lemons, Shove Them Where The Sun Don't Shine'

Its a shame there is so much anger. Pain will do that to a person. I hope you get the closure you request.

July 3

SharoninMa commented on Layla's blog post 'I Cannot Breathe'

I feel for you Layla... I know about betrayal all to well unfortunately. No you don't deserve it... not at all. To quote my mother once who by the way never swore she said "Sharon, sometimes you just have to say Fuck em all !!!" I'll tell ya, my m...

July 2

SharoninMa commented on Layla's blog post 'When Life Gives You Lemons, Shove Them Where The Sun Don't Shine'

The title of your blog post drew me in... I'm a bit sarcastic myself.. so I can relate. I can also relate to the relationship push/pull situation you have going on.. Yes I'm pushing and he's pulling. You have a great writing style.. seems like a g...

July 2

Blood Tear commented on Layla's blog post 'I Cannot Breathe'

whoa, layla, wow. u need some help? i dont mind hiering a hit:) lol, well, i wouldnt kill a human, but id deffmakje their life hhell

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I remember when I was in 3rd grade and my teacher, I'll never forget her, called me an Old Soul. Even though I didn't know exactly what she meant at the time, I got the gist. Now years later, I understand the phrase only too well.
I have the mentality and maturity of a fifty-year-old, though I'm much younger in physical age. I'm sure if you get to know me you'll find my personality ranges in many different facets. People think I'm weird, but isn't everyone in their own way? I say nobody's normal and if you really are the stereotypical description of normal, then you need to check yourself.
If I truly had to classify myself empathically, my high sensitivity for seeing the future or premonitions, is the more dominant of the bunch. Though I pretty much experience all categories known.
Ever since I was little, I've had extremely strong De'Ja Vu. Also including the fact that a good percentage of the time I watched the news, I had a premonition that caused a searing migraine afterwards. Odd, I know. I was a very anxious child from the start, lol. Thats why ever since, I've almost avoided the news channels all together.
Since then that lil sixth sense has grown into full out premontions, no DeJa Vu's. Lots of meditation and drama later, I was able to have them without having my head feel like its going to explode. Almost ninety percent of them are about me, though occasionally I'll get one especially for someone else. I have to know the person closely in order to have a decent one about them and if I do they are still exceptionally vague. The clearest ones are those that personally involve me. Which makes sense. That is except for the one's I get from most types of news, which are terribly vivid. But I try to keep away from those at all costs seeing as I get pain from them, not only physical but emotional. Example: A child is kidnapped and murdered. I see that she's stuffed in a trunk with her hands and feet tied up. I feel her agony, her fear. Enough to send a scream building in my throat. Now you know why I stay away.
But anyhoo, despite the wretchedness of some things in my life, I'm a rather pleasant person to be around. The power of philisophical meaning is not in vain for me. I try to live every day like its my last, though sometimes it can be...difficult. But if there wasn't any challenge in life than what would it be worth? Zip. Thats my answer.

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Fighting The Numbness

Often rather traumatic things have happened to me throughout my life. Every time something does, some subconscious part of my mind insists No, you can't handle this. It will destroy you if you try. So I went numb. And now when the bad things happen again, ever since, I go numb, even if it is not my choice. My heart gets broken, numb. Parts of my family disown me, numb. People I love die, numb.
I used to think, this is good, I don't want to feel. And part of me still agrees out of pure hab… Continue

Posted on July 27, 2009 at 3:24am — 2 Comments

Turning A New Leaf??? Skeptical, But Hopeful

Where do I begin?? I know!!!
My lemons have been obliderated!!!!!!
The King lemon actually worked out...I can't even begin to register that fact. It was a very very close call, but I made it out alive. Like I said, I'm skeptical as hell, but I'm hopeful. My premonitions tell me I dont have to worry about MAJOR drama for a good while. (Heaves a huge sigh) Hahaha, I guess I'll be my usual pessimistic self and say I'll believe it when I see it,lol.
Life is as good as it can possibly get. Whi… Continue

Posted on July 13, 2009 at 12:38am —

Time Heals All Wounds...Well Maybe Not, But It Helps

In a way, I scare myself. Things can happen, and I'll feel, see, hear and think nothing but the pain or the sadness for awhile. But not even two days after, I'm just passive. I feel the sting of the hurt, but it doesn't dominate my senses anymore, I'm just numb. How can such irrevicable, destructive emotions be SO strong, then simmer down soo quickly?
Speaking of simmering down, the... what did I call it? The King lemon? lol, well I seriously think, for once, things are gonna go my way without m… Continue

Posted on July 3, 2009 at 4:06pm —

I Cannot Breathe

He has some fuckin nerve. I promised myself I would NEVER put myself in the position of having my heart broken, ever. (scoffs) now look where I've ended up. I trusted him. I told him almost everything about me!! I spilt my fuckin guts! I put down alll my fuckin barriers for him and for what??
I can't breathe. I'm so far gone from angry, I could spit.
How could I let this happen again?? I trusted him... I refuse to cry. I refuse to waste anymore tears on him.
The mosted twisted part???? I could h… Continue

Posted on July 2, 2009 at 12:27am — 2 Comments

Is It A Curse Or A Blessing? The Answer Is Both.

I am having the hardest time today grounding myself. Everything is coming through in river rapids. My mom's frustration is so palpable that its eating me away. She's more irritable today than normal. My sister called from the jail today. Her anger and desolation was more than I could bare. I stay on the phone with her though, even if I was in tears. She refused to talk to my mom... Its really bad. I know she'll forgive us, but I also realize it will change the way she see's us. I don't mind it m… Continue

Posted on July 1, 2009 at 11:04pm — 1 Comment

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At 4:10pm on November 18, 2009, Pat said…: Have read your blog and Love it. And wanted to wander by and give you a Big (((((((HUG))))))). Don't let the bastards get you down. ;-) Love & Light ---Pat

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At 11:20pm on January 22, 2009, Brandy said…: Hey Layla, Just want to tell you your blogs are great. I enjoy them immensely!
Love to you and your boy;-)