I would like request a reading

[LdyAngel]

My life has been very unhappy. I feel, at times, that I should change my last name to Murphy (as I have been living Murphy's Law for most of it...) With ups and downs not only in my personal relationships, but my career and Health! Any input or guidance that anyone can offer would be greatly appriciated. As I am just learning to deal with my own empathic tendencies, I understand how difficult it can be... Thanks in advance.

[Christy]

I answered you. Did you get it or did I totally lose it. LOL

[LdyAngel]

Christy, I did not get anything....if you want, feel free to send it private... :D

[Eboni Marmolejos]

I posted a reply but now its gone, so I'm going to try to remember it and post it again. I am new here and just realized "feel" more than normal. If I am off please let me know. I am feeling that you are very angry with yourself. Behind closed doors it's neither Murphy nor his law that you blame...it's you. I am sensing some self sabotaging. Is it possible that you are afraid of something when it comes to your career & relationships? Success? Failure? This all I am feeling right now. Please let me know if this is off. I never want to share innacurrate information, but if I don't share I won't know if these feelings are accuarate or not.

[Deirdre Siobhan]

I see you as driving on the verge of the road, not ON it, therefor the ups and downs and bumps, YOUR road is parallel to where you are traveling and your ill health is trying to re-align you.

[Malene]

Ok, this is just some 'inputs', not an actual reading.

I don't get the impression that you are very unhappy, more in an uncomfortable state of mind, where you don't really know if you are unhappy or numb/indifferent. As if you are not really connected to you inner self, the part that would make you feel sad or truly unhappy/unsatisfied. But the feeling of not being connected is in fact much worse than the feeling of being unhappy.

The everyday struggles seem to not give you a chance for you to get to know yourself. One day takes the next, the uphill marathon, where it feels more safe to not experiment with your true self.

This also reflects on the relationships.
Because you don't know what you want, and therefore what you get is not satisfying. But you still try to settle for that, even though it really isn't your needs, that are being satisfied. As if you try to make it your needs.
Just a question - do you help your mother a lot more than you feel the surplus for? I get a vague impression, that you are still trying to follow her rules in some way, as if you haven't really broken free... I could be guessing (with all of this!)

With the job situation...
It seems as if you feel overlooked/unimportant, because you don't have the energy to say: "hey - I'm here!"
You doubt if you have enough to offer, so you are afraid to make yourself too noticed, afraid people would judge you afterwards.

You are still at the very surface of 'you', and so to try and make things work for you (as opposed to following murpheys law), you need to know how you work best.

I am not in any way sure of any of this!

[LdyAngel]

Thank you so much...Do you wanna know how scary accurate you are??? As I started reading your post, I was amazed. Indifferent...good word to use. I have been plugging away, existing, for so long. I have been in several very damaging relationships and somewhere, somehow, lost myself. I think, in retrospect, my empathic tendancies led me to do for others more than I ever did for myself. Now, for the scary part.... I moved in with my mother nearly 2 years ago, at the end of marriage #2, because she is no longer able to live alone. She is very...controlling, and demanding. Even though I am nearly 39, she makes me feel as if I have to ask permission to DO anything...(her house, her rules)...so much so that the first date I had after becoming single, she wanted me to report to my brother where I was going, who I was going to be with...etc. And when I do go out she is so disapproving....

You were pretty spot on about work too. I am up for a promotion. I was told a week ago that I have not gotten it yet, (even though I am doing ALL of the things that are specific to this position) because of my health issues (I have not missed a day, nor have I even been late, for over 3 months) and the fact that I am "a big girl"...(Yeah, he called me fat) and needed to wear different style of clothes (I wear company issued polo shirts, just like everyone else). And yeah, I do tend to feel that ppl judge me... It is almost crippling sometimes.

When a guy shows interest, I worry and worry about it, wondering what he could ever see in me, why he likes me, etc. Anyway, it seems you connected very well! WOW!

[Malene]

Thank you so much for the feed back!! :D

[Remi Daily]

Hi Malene,

I wanted to tell you thank you for that awesome reading. That was spetacular! I think you were beyond spot on and I think your words have helped her spark what she needed to know at the exact right timing in her life before she becomes entrenched by murphy's law. Its like what Deidre said, she was getting really close to being swept into the black hole. But I think you've kept that from happening!!! I truly do.

Thank you so much, even though I am not LdyAngel!

[Malene]

Wow... Thank you for your kind words!

[Remi Daily]

Hi LdyAngel,

I added you on as friends. So if you can ever have the chance to email me, please do. I have more to tell you beyond the scope of what I am posting now.

I pulled a few cards:

The Bee- Tells us to work hard for our dreams, a sweet outcome is assured.

The Swan- Transformation, from the ugly duckling to the beautiful swan. You may change so much you may not recognize who you are."Dive in and you will love who you will become" Honor the change and love from within.

The Queen- (I personally love this card) it tells us to walk around like we're the queen, with our head held up high. There is the importance of self-esteem and self-worth. It asks us to set boundaries with others with gentle authority, yet not try to isolate them in the process. We need allies too, so strengthen your true friendships.

Focus- This card says to pay more attention to yourself and to the job ahead. Draw all of your energies inward. Let go of all things that are superfluous and unnecessary. Do what is in front of you, no matter how small the task. Clear focus is needed.

The Hawk- Expect a message to be delivered to you to aid you in your quest. Phone call from a friend, a chance meeting with someone, overhearing conversations. The world is sending you messages.

The Dog- are others being as sincere and loyal as you are?

When you have a chance confirm me as your friend and e-mail me.

Cheers,
Remi